Letters from a Young Mistress

2nd Letter


22 Mar. 2006
Wed., 20.15

Baby,

Am I upset? No. Unfriendly? I don't think so. That's how you reply sometimes. So I didn't think you'd mind if i do the same. I did it now coz I'm not feeling well. It's the first day of my period and I can't wait to get home, lie down and prop my feet up.

Letters from a Young Mistress

20 March 2006
Monday, 22.46

Dear Baby,

I know we still have way more than halfway to go through our relationship. And I am holding on to it with my dear life. I exert all the strength that I have, summon all the courage that I could, to bear the heartache and endure all the pain. But it is sad to say that I feel my strength and courage is already failing. Seems my ailing heart can't bear another pain or guilt. We should not be together. You have a wife, you have two wonderful kids....you have a family. And everytime you talk about anything that you do together, my heart breaks into thousand pieces. I am not jealous as you tell me you're just staying for the kids and I know that you love them dearly. I don't think it's jealousy. It's more of an unwelcome feeling. I feel like there's no room for me in your life. And I fear that there will never be. Everyday, I am gripped by that fear. Every night, I silently pray to God for more strength to carry on. Ironic because I know that what we have is wrong. But only God can help me. Every moment that I am alone, I cry.

Trystings

30 November 2008
0145

Why must we hide
and must not confide
the feelings inside
and just be alive

I Hope…

I hope I’m still here
When you finally realize
How long I have been waiting

I hope I’m still here
When you finally do
What you should have done a long time ago

Spirited Away

Seduced by some strange light
Pushed by the wind
Pulled through a tunnel
To a foreign land beyond
Can’t tear the eyes off
Of such a beautiful sight
Taken aback and breathless
Was hypnotized and paralyzed