Sometimes, it's difficult to prove that you love somebody because of the many constraints or hurdles in life. Limitations set by time, by status, or by a person's capabilities. It is even harder when the involved person is a child.
Children only knows black and white, they don't recognize a gray area. They only feel either love or neglect. It's difficult for them to understand certain circumstances that sometimes prevents us adults to show them our love. But as they grow into adulthood, they ease into it. Sometimes they learn to understand and take it as it is. However, there are also times when they fail to see the love and focus only on the pain of unfulfilled longing for affection.
And what makes it more difficult for adults to make children understand is the communication gap. The gap is especially bigger when it comes to adolescents or teenagers because they have a tendency to clam up. They shut their world and hide inside it. Never letting their true feelings be known for fear that they would not be understood. Worse, they also refuse to listen because they feel that everything we say is either redundant, or some sort of punishment for them. And that we say things out of spite and not out of love.
I have been a child, a teenager, once and I still remember how it was. The feeling that I know everything and I don't need to be told. I still have that thinking sometimes, but I do admit now that we still need reminders no matter how old or mature we think we are.
Now, there's this precious girl whom I love. We have a not-so-usual relationship that may raise some people's eyebrows. We are friends, yes to some degree. I guess we're as close as an adult could normally get to with a teenager. I could have been her mother and God knows how much I want to. I believe she wants that, too. However, certain circumstances would not allow me and I can only show her my love in the little ways that my time and limited capabilities could afford. I know she understands this but I'm not sure if she fully accepts it. Or if she had come to terms with and learn to live with this fact. I understand that she also has some personal issues that may be affecting how she feels about our friendship. So I wrote this poem for her, to let her know that I'm here and she can count on me.
I may not be around as much
For us to spend time together and such
We may all the time be apart
But please know that you’re always in my heart
Much as I wanna hold
Or hug you when you’re cold
Much as I wanna be there
To offer comfort when you’re scared
You know that I sometimes can’t
But know that I would’ve bent
Over backwards and inside and out
If I did hear you shout
I can still be a shoulder
To lean on for things hard to bear
Such as foolish mistakes
Or awful heartbreaks
I can still extend a hand
To pull and help you stand
After a terrible fall
Help you overcome it all
I know I am not your mother
And that I can never replace her
But a very good friend, I can be
If, and only if, you will allow me
Written on 04 October 2013, 18:38
By: Lady Olivine