If I Decide to Die Today

(A Poem by a Mistress - emailed to her lover)


If I decide to die today

Here's what my heart has to say...

I lived in constant fears

I breathed in constant pain

I drank my endless tears
Drove me completely insane

You are the last man

That I loved and lost

You are the only man

I have loved the most

Thank you, baby

For the love you gave

I am sorry, baby

I am not so brave

To stick to the fight

Till it is all done

To hold on with all might

I chose to be gone

Didn't have the courage

To wait and see till the end

I was deathly afraid

You won't be mine in the end

I'm sorry for all the pain

That my folly caused you

I tried not to but tried in vain

Again and again, i hurt you

But will now face my fears

I will now end both our pain

And will now stop the tears

I will now be sane again

Farewell, my Love

I love you... goodbye

Farewell, sweet Love

For today...I decide to die.